Sunday (11th November 2012)
Today, most of the participants of yesterday's mega search has other duties to attend to while others who decided to join are doing so at their own pace.
Mother must have started her search after Subuh, we did not see her even when we left the house after breakfast.
Another few rounds the places he was seen and surrounding areas. Around noon, FIL called hubby before informing the 'orang kampung' that Kareem is yet to be found. The man was shocked and told us that he will keep us updated with any 'findings'.
We all took a nap at home that noon and keep updated with my mother. Mother said she decided to trace Kareem's walkabout starting from the spot he was last seen. She walks for few kilometers and will continue that evening. Zikir words kept her going and the winds provide directions to every turning that she decided to take and any wrong turning will sent her burping. Sounds cheesy - the winds provides direction, go with the wind. Subhanallah, the Almighty was with every step.
Further the nasi lemak seller informed mother that another solat hajat and doa selamat session was held in the morning. The 'findings' from previous solat hajat was Kareem in a weak condition. While today, Kareem is in a very weak condition.
We (me, hubby and the boys) had another round at an adjacent commercial area from he was last seen that evening. When we almost reach home, mother called, asking us to fetch her from a petrol station, she saw us drive passed her. She needs a ride home after hours on the feet. She probably walked for more than 10km.
That night the 'orang kampung' called. He said Kareem is being hidden, he would pray for Kareem to be released but it still upon god's will. The occurance that Kareem was 'hidden' instead of being taken care of not by our kind did not cross his mind when he 'traced' Kareem on Friday night. Again, the guy reminded that Monday will marked as the seventh day Kareem was missing, slimmer chance for any assistance from him to bear any fruit.
Monday (12th November 2012)
A week since he was last seen and we went to work as usual. Mother continued her walk early, again we did not meet her before she left the house.
When I meet her at home after work, watering the plant, I casually asked on her search for the day. She went to Kajang for Zohor after she finished her walk and ride by the car which took her to a private hospital in Puchong. When every turn will end her in front of the hospital. As the hospital not far away from Kajang, she went there to update my grandparents. For her, its a sign that Kareem either in a hospital or he is in a critical condition which requires medical assistance or simply it is an association to death.
After Zohor she no longer feels any desire or urge to continue the search. She has been staying at home since then.
Tuesday (13th November 2012)
The eighth day he went missing and today is Deepavali. Lucky us living in Malaysia, plenty of public holiday. So the search would not effect our annual leave if it were to continue it today. My aunt, mother's sister visited us early that morning. She is a teacher, so she teach. Well a lecturer gives lecture and she too was giving one instead of teaching.
She prayed solat hajat every night since Kareem went missing while my mother also did that besides after every solat wajib. Eventually after about an hour after lecturing, she said in her dream last night, she had images of a body being carried in a black canvas while another man holding an umbrella for the remaining. Kareem is no longer alive.
Then mother said, it (the death) happend the day before with the signs (hospital and the lost urge to search). Further, when mother went out of bathroom on the previous evening, instead of any smell of detergent, septic or any that relate to the bathroom, she sense the smell of kemenyan or burning of dry cocanut. The previous night, it was a hot day but she felt so cold that she needs to cover herself with additional layer of clothing and a blanket. Sign that the body no longer produce any heat - stone cold, cold as the dead.
That noon hubby urge me for another round of search, so off we went to the places we already visited to ease the desire to hunt. I am with my mother, no longer the need to search. So when I was questioned by hubby where next? No more searching of course. We probably had enough search missions that I feel the need to recharge and decided to go for a stroll in the KLCC park. Iskadar had a splashing time at the paddling pool at the park. After days raiding in the car, he too deserve a break. He has been good.
When we reach home, mother was still at home. Well it feels strange to me that for the past few days she would go out early in the morning and be back only by dusk compared to staying at home. She was mourning I guess, praying and zikir to get it over. Mourn for a lost but without any remaining as proof of lost. Disappear into the thin air lost.
The 'orang kampung' called hubby that everning to advice for another mega search that night between 11pm to 3am. That night was the first time mother spoke to the 'orang kampung'. He explained the procedure to mother, the search will begain at the last spot Kareem was seen and a person need to stay (anchor) while the other conduct the hunt. The mission will be held while he perform solat hajat among 100 of his friends, praying for his release. As Kareem is not far away, his remains should be found during this period or a flash of Kareem will appear indicating the end of the expidition.
Half of the Saturday mega search turned up, the following day was a school day and it was a mid night search. We are greatful enough with the turn outs of approximately 10 cars and Bazlina's parents on the bike. Off they went while I stayed with the boys. Hubby was home after 2am, well he should spent another hour searching. I felt distrubed, I could not join the search and yet he was home early!!! Ini tidak adil. Urggghhhh. Lucky him I was drowsy, so I only asked are there any sign? No sight of him :,(
Wednesday (14th November 2012)
When I asked mother in the morning on yesterday's outcome, she said that she stayed anchor at the position accompanied by my grandfather. After my father sent hubby home, father joined mother at the location, sleeping. Approximately after 3am, he was awaken by an image of Kareem riding a double decker bus. That was the first sign my father had on Kareem since mother had plenty and he had none.
That morning another search was held to find the body. Off we went around 9am after everybody who decided to participate was gathered. Well hubby went to work while I joined the search in my aunt's car after sending off the boys.
Around 10am hubby texted: the 'orang kampung' advice us to have a tahlil since it has been more than a week. Mother thought if an image flash, it indicates that the body will be found. The actual fact is you only gotta see the image, not him in flesh as he would not be release. I was not riding with my parents, so when we reach home I showed my parents the text, tahlil will be conducted that night. The following day was maal hijrah 1434, quite a number of turn ups for the tahlil.
Since there was no body, mother was questioned on the decision to perform tahlil. It kinda irritates me, we are mourning for god's sake, whats with the questions? Questions on the event is fine, but questions on the tahlil?
